Tuesday, July 10, 2007

With a smug smile...

I often write about my love life… my life with Christa, only to keep it to myself out of a fear of coming off as smug and arrogant.

However, today I don’t really give a damn. I’m tired of keeping quiet about what makes me the happiest.

I wake up to poetry written on mirrors and tiny scraps of paper hidden throughout our home. Words that connect with my very soul and make me feel more whole than I ever thought possible.

I go to bed with the greatest lover I have ever known and I wake up with my best friend in the world.

I’ve read a thousand journals about how happy people are…how amazing their boyfriend/ girlfriend/ spouse is, and how they’re “the happiest couple in the world”.

I read it and I smile (assuredly, rather smugly) because I know that most people will never know love like this… and it’s a thought that will forever humble me.

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Monday, July 2, 2007

Driving


I just got in from a drive. I had almost forgotten how relaxing that can be. It’s not like it was anything particularly special…just my lady and I cruising through the neighborhood. Windows down, sunroof up…checking out some of the old homes and buildings in nearby Santa Ana. I kept the radio off, choosing to enjoy the sounds of the city as my soundtrack; the hum and crackle of massive street lights, the occasional car horn like a trumpet off in the distance and the sound of families crowded around their TVs watching their favorite shows. I can’t help but notice how small and insignificant the various cars look compared to the slow swarm of city busses. Massive beasts lit up like fishbowls with just a spattering of passengers. Each one looking more tired than the previous. Proud, hard-working people who probably deserve to have a car much more than I do.
I now have every window and door of the house open. The air is cool and fresh. The gentle hum of the freeway is mixing with the Miles Davis playing on the radio and it’s making my eyes heavy. It’s been a long couple of months and I’m milking this rare night off for everything it’s worth.
It’s been far too long since I last took the time to enjoy the simple things like this. I’ve been too damn focused on work for it. Too busy trying to juggle both a career and a night job. 2 jobs plus 2 bosses adds up to too many people to please and not enough time for myself. Yet, as much as I hate working so hard… I can’t help but think that it’s this schedule, this lifestyle that helps me appreciate the few quite moments I get. Deep down, I know it keeps me from taking things for granted. After all, it’s that second job that keeps me from being one of those tired people on the bus, still waiting to get home.
So here’s to hard work, the sounds of the city and a refreshing break from the heat of the summer.
Life can be rough sometimes, but I don’t think I would have it any other way.

Cheers.

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